(Feb 10 - Friday)

this week, i should be better until the last moment of friday...
it turns everything bad!

i understood that elaine is my past that she will not come back to me. hence, i have to put my past experience down.
later on, i found out that cindy is really a substitution of elaine that i dont really love cindy, but her shell.
hence, after clearing my mind, i felt much better in the week...

however, tonight, after finished shopping with cindy and the others, i drove cindy back to her apartment near UCLA.
cindy's bf (i guess) was waiting for her right outside her apartment.
cindy was surprised. she quickly ran up the stairs to meet her bf.
because i think i should not stay for longer, i left. however, as i watched back through the rear mirror, i found that cindy went out with her bf.
That is the most depressed moment of my week.
cindy said that she was tired that we cancelled all the activities at night.
cindy's gladful welcome of her bf (running up the stairs) shows me that cindy loves her bf very much.
furthermore, cindy was energetic after meeting her bf. she showed her tiredness throughout the day.
i also believe that cindy loves her bf more than her bf loves her.

as a third party, how can my week go better after this moment.
my happiness goes straightly downward.

i keep telling myself - "Take it easy!"